i'm not as strong as you thot i'd be.

times whn i rly needed you t hold me, whn i falterd, but wher were you?

were you evn concernd abt t sudden disappearance?

were you evn aware tht our daily night calls reduced t what seemd lyk ntg?

did you evn feel threatend by Kels and Alvin?

did you knw tht it feels so tiring and heart rending t mourn for my cousin and at t same time worry abt how you feel? at this point of time, i still consider your feelgs, but do you?

i rly wna say sorry t you for neglecting you,

but hey i do care but this rly isn't t time.

it's fine, i'l step back, sorry.

this may be the first time i'm sayg it, but i think it'l be the last.

i knw it's me who keep tryg t resurrect this friendship,

to you, you may find me an irritant bugging you all the time.

but you nvr knw how it feels to lose someone, someone you feel for.

lyk as if experiencing tht now is not stressful enough.

you'v alw hurled vulgarities at me,

to me i thought i was jst your 'habit',

but whn you spat it in my face,

sayg it was for real,

the humiliation and sadness,

far from anger,

was in my face.

i knw no matter how hard i tried to take evrythg back,

it wld be futile.

i wld not disturb you anymore,

but all i wantd to say,

and will always be.

xxo Timothy Cher