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to Bobby Chia

10.6.08

was supposed t be back on Sunday from t Bangkok holiday, but at an unearthly hour on Saturday, family from S'pore called and said tht Bobby cousin passed away.
rushd back t S'pore and went t Aunt Ann's (Bobby's mum) plc.

she told us tht Bobby was on a scuba diving trip and this was his third and final test.
as it was a test, they had t experience all types of weather conditions, thus t night diving.

Bobby had asthma since young and t doctor warnd him against scuba diving, but he refused t listen bc he loved sea creatures.

SO, for their test, evryone had t go down at t same time. Bobby's buddy saw him gng down v fast (not supposed t bc of pressure). almost immediately, he dived up.

almost immediately he fell back down agn, w trails of blood making t sea red.

t instructor was notified and sent him ashore.

thruout t whole journey (4 hrs!!) Bobby was v strong despite blood gushg out from his arms, legs, face and SKULL. (ther was no ambulance available, M'sia wad -.- SUCKASS COUNTRY)
he was v strong thruout and nvr gave up. his instructor and him prayd tgtr cryg out t God.
he kept callg for his Mother, Brother, Sister and Father. (prolly bc he knws his time is up)

whn they reachd t hospital, ther was no doctor and whn thy found the only doctor in t whole mfcking hospital, he scolded thm for waking him up. (you porknehneh fishhead, WNT T SLP THN SLP IN A COFFIN LA CB)
so while stitchg up Bobby's face, t left side, he was either

1) dazing and took t wrong thread
2) t cocked up hospital dsnt have enough $$ t buy thinner threads.

why?

THE THREAD USED T STITCH HIS ARMS, LEGS, FACE IS 2 CM IN DIAMETER.
do you knw how thick is it? whn i saw it, i was swearing all t way. I SWEAR THT BLOODY ASSHOLE WILL HAVE HIS DESERTS SOME DAY.

What went wrong:

8pm: instructor calld home t say he had an accident, but still hanging on. Bobby talkd t thm.

12am: reachd hospital, hospital said thy wld operate on him imm. still hanging on.

2am: finishd op, still hanging on

230am: hospital calld back, said he had passed on.

What was t truth (acc to the instructor who was w him all t way):

12am: reachd hospital

1220am: shortly aftr t (shitass) doctor was found, he passed on.

EY WAD IS THIS LA. PASS AWAY MEANS PASS AWAY. WHY MST YOU GIVE FALSE HOPES T HIS FAMILY MEMBERS AND ACT AS IF YOU TRIED T SAVE HIS LIFE BUT T NO AVAIL? WHYWHYWHY? PIECE OF SHIT.

t instructor did not knw abt all t calls t hospital made and calld his parents at abt 3am.
Sister Connie and Brother Kevin ran all t errants.

1> arrange for t body t be put in a coffin before being fetchd back by Uncle Erik (Bobby's dad).
2> arrange for t funeral and ring up t casket cpny
3> arrange for a pastor t have sermons
4> call t relatives and Bobby's close friends

Junli, Ken, Gabs, Vin, Aunts, Uncles were on t way t pick up t body t followg morning.

whn i saw t poorly stitched up face, t bruised and black arm, my heart shatterd.
his face was so puffed up and tht half of his face was so poorly stitchd, t flesh can still be seen so clearly.
thy didn't evn have a heart t clean up his bloodied body.
ther were exposed skin all ovr but he still lookd v peaceful.

t instructor said tht he was a v strong guy and evn tho t cuts were v deep he still perseverd till t hospital. unfortunately, too much blood was being lost during tht critical 4 hrs.

what actually hpnd:

from underwater, whn he imm rose up, a speedboat was patrolling and t propeller hit him hard.

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whn we arrived in S'pore, we imm sent t coffin t Trinity Casket in Sim Lim.
t our horror, t pple said tht t body cnt be transferrd t a nicer coffin (obv need t transfer right, fucking M'sia uses old rickety wood ones) bc t body is too badly bruised and needs at least a day t be made-up.
we were lyk :0 bc ther were so mny concernd relatives alrd at t funeral waitg t see him.

meanwhile, cousins and i went back t Bobby's room t search his computer for pictures for his photo frame (you knw those type wher it is put near t coffin during t wake?).
it was so heart throbbing t see all of his pictures in his computer and t ones tht we used t take it all tgtr during our usual gatherings.

so mny of us broke down seeing you smile so happily, you knw Bobby.
it was v tough for Javier (his younger bro) as he chose t best picture.
all of us jst let it all out and i'm v glad tht we did evrythg tgtr for our 'brother' for t v last time.

we burnd a cd of his favourite songs, playd Winning 11 on t xbox, playd t hardest song evr on DJ Max, jst t commemorate you.
i tried my v best t control t tears bc i knw if i let it out, evryone will do it too. i'v t be strongr thn thm t take care of thm.

didn't evn slp and all t 22 cousins sat in his room and talkd abt wad he did for us and how loving was he whn he was still arnd.

The day the body arrived at the funeral:

we saw his body being carried into t function room and t tears jst came naturally.
i told my cousins

'it was a blessing he left us bc we saw how serious his injury was and evn if he lived, he wld be living in misery. But now, he'l be gng t heaven, a plc wher ther will be no pain. we'l alw meet each othr up ther agn'

aftr i said tht, all of us seemd t pull ourselves tgtr and take care of our parents.

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seeing Aunt Ann cry so sadly made my heart break.
she told Bobby

'pls stop learng diving alrd bc it's v dangerous'

'Mum i'm alrd 20, pls stop controllg me'

things had t take a turn for t worse, whn a person is at his peak,
but tht's God's work.

Bobby had a vvvv serious motorbike fall last year but it failed t take his life.
things are such tht whn your time's up, it's up.

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my Mum brought him up from young and he alw came ovr t stay in my hse. evryone knew he was a v filial boy and was indeed selfless
whn i fell off from a bicycle while cycling, he ran atw back t my parents, jst t bring me t safety.

his Grandma is 92 years old and cnt accept t fact tht her Grandson dies before her,
t t extent tht she keeps sayg tht he's slpg and not dead.
i keep consoling her and tell her tht she wld see him soon in heaven.
she cried so hard, she fainted twice.
how torturing can it be for an elderly t take such a hard blow, anyw my heart goes all out t her.

his dad is still in a state of shock. from t time he saw his body in M'sia, till t time he was at t funeral, he spoke no more thn 10 sentences. he did not shed any tears and had jst a blank stare on his face.

my father flew all t way back from the States jst t attend his funeral. my dad loved Bobby t bits and promised t get him his Mercedes sportscar whn he hits 25 years old. seeing my dad grieve ovr him tells me tht ntg mattrd anymore but family love.

we, t 22 cousins watchd ovr him during t 2 days of his wake. seeing Gabs banging t wall (literally) says abt his close ties w Bobby ovr t years.

Cremation (today):

Aunt Ann cried and shoutd so loud whn his coffin is being coverd. it'l be her last time she wld be able t see her son.
she cnt evn see him be cremated bc it's said tht 白头发不能送黑头发.
all my tears jst flew lyk water whn i saw it being covered.

t strongr cousins and Bobby's close friends helpd t carry t coffin.
while we were walkg t t bus, i held Javier's hand so tightly bc altho he didn't show much expression, all of us knew he was hvg a hard time inside.
i huggd him whn t coffin was being put into t car.
HE ALMOST FAINTED LA.
suddenly all t weight was on me, i was :0 helllpppppp.
he was v glad for tht and JAVIER I'L ALW SUPPORT YOU, LOVE YOU ♥

(Javier feels a lot bc it was Bobby who alw beat him up and forced him t learn his lesson. Bobby cared so much for Javier and it was Bobby who taught him mny lessons)

whn Aunt Ann saw t body being carried into t car, it rly was her last time t see her son before we leave for t crematorium.
whn i saw her frail body on t floor, i realised how great a mother's love is.
Uncle Erik was still in a daze..

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whn we put tht stalk of flower on his coffin, t cousins tried our best t stay strong, but mny of our parents jst broke dwn.
Ashley managed t hold her mother up in time, which was great.

we sang Amazing Grace for Bobby w all our heart, and soon we were lookg from t top of t hall, waitg for Bobby's coffin t be pushd out.

whn we saw his coffin, we all tried our best not t scream for his name out loud.
Javier and i made a long prayr t God and t Bobby.
i alw thot tht Javier was a good-heartd boy despite all t piercings and tht star tattoo (which i love v much).
whn we saw his body being pushd inside tht 'door', and t moment it was shut, both of us clenchd our fists and cldn't hold it any longr.

this was t first time i saw Javier so heart brokened.
he promised me tht aftr tdy, he wld not shed a tear for Bobby bc he wnts him t rip.
JAVIER PLS PULL THRU THIS DIFFICULY PERIOD OF TIME AND I'L ALW LOVE YOU (:

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the saddest part:

t worst thing is tht, Javier's eldest brother, Jermia, death anniversary is tdy. ><

so t family don't knw whether t celebrate his anniversary or mourn for his cremation.
i feel so sad for Aunt Ann bc it's so saddeng tht both her sons die during this time.
STAY STRONG

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went back t t funeral plc and ate our dnr.
didn't rly eat much these few days and t food was esp nice tdy!

all of us sat in t same table and this was t first time in 3 days i saw thm lookg happy.
we all tried t keep t atmosphere happy, although we knw we weren't tht happy.

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so here am i in Bobby's room using Javier's laptop.
will be stayg here t accompany Javier tonight w Gabs.

we have dealt w t departg part and we knw w all t make-up, Bobby looks so handsome. we'r sure he wld be t cutest guy in heaven !

right now, we'r not talkg abt Bobby anymore.
Javier's tellg me abt his past experience w his girlf!
we wld rmbr t days wher he wld alw bully me and carryg me.
YOU'R STILL V CUTE JAVIER AND I WLD TELL PINK THT YOU'R V CUTE AND YOU'R DEFINITELY HER TYPE.

Gabs and i have 3 friends in common. Kels, Alvin and HuiHui.
OYA I FORGOT T MENTION THT 3 OF THM KNWS BOBBY AND ARE GOOD FRIENDS!
AND THEIR HERE NOW. ULTIMATE ♥
t 3 of thm have alw been by my side this 3 days and have been alw keepg me strong.
thy handle almost evrythg for me

1) remindg me t eat
2) taking care of my phone
3) buyg 10 of my fav Roti Prata (AND I ATE 7 WHILE JAVIER ATE 3)
4) BEING MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT.

I LOVE YOU BESTFRIENDS AND COUSINS, LOVELOVELOVE.

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GAH JAVIER AND I ARE GNA DO STG NOW. STG V SECRETIVE AND V xxx CNT SAY AHAHAAH