goal for now? resist eating fish&co till aftr HK trip
laugh twist pout
NYSSHA TAN
ther are too mny pple i wna thank for evrythg i'v now!
top priority? definitely those tht are rly close
ther are times you dnwna talk, but thy knw how you'r feeling
i'm a busy girllll
14.9.08
Friday night:
went t meet jerrold > cool shitz > home arnd 6am
Saturday:
went t eat Mos at PP > tuition > walked arnd PP > Suntec t collect camera w jerrold > kels's hse for dnr w cherry and alvin > met w teri t study > tampines interchange t slack > walkd t DTE > home at 9am +
Sunday:
woke up at 5pm > had dnr w jerrold > Queen's couture > home
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frid was rly fun. grafitti on walls, cool drawings on his a3 drawing block. we walked arnd town, i posed and he drew. cab fare was a bomb but ohwell wad can you do if ther's no other form of transportation?
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saturd was a rather gloomy day bc i dnlyk it whn ppl pangseh me, evn if ther's a reasonable reason. ok i knw i'm being selfish but tht's wad i rly feel. it's so empty t go back alone, no one t talk t.
it makes me think abt so mny things. forces me t make decisions against my will. part and parcels of life i'l jst have t accept (un)willingly
walkg is a form of v good exercise doooodzx. go try walkg from tamp t pasir ris. i kwn some ppl may say it's only an mrt station away but try it and you'l knw. company was great. amusing combi.
i still hvnt found a reason for things t flip upside down whn it's at it peak. why mst all t bad things overwhelm whn we'r hvg a fun time? no one asked for things lyk this t hpn but it jst did. innocent parties jst had t suffer t most. why? it jst further makes me guilty and regretful. it rly helps t keep my fucking gab shut.
i'm rly sorry.
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sunday was fuckd up. hvg t face everythg all ovr agn, but w someone i trust. made things better. t more he proves tht things arent my fault, t more i feel he is tryg t say things t wont hurt me, which makes me worse. it's jst lyk wad i did t him all ovr agn, but multiplied a hundred times. this time t someone i'm not close t.
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